Homesick
Hi everyone, haven't been on here for awhile, mainly because i didn't want to moan. I have just come back form the UK, a very quick 2 week visit. I wasn't feeling especially homesick but I was unprepared for the feelings I had this time round, when I had to leave. Think it is because I knew what I would miss once I got back to NZ. I don't have anything really to moan about. I live in a lovely rented house in a very lovely place called Ohope, a 5 minute walk to the beach. I have a good job, one that I wasn't enjoying in the UK. My daughter is very happy, she is 13 and doing much better in school here. She takes part in more sports and is even enjoying badminton and she has lots of friends.
I am struggling financially. What I mean is I can't afford a house on my salary. I wanted to buy a plot of land and build my home. The other option is buying a property in another town about 35 minutes away and rent it out, use it as an investment. I would still have to rent here but I want my own home, I think most of you can understand that. I have some boxes at my mums, mainly personal stuff. I asked for a quote recently and it was ?650. I wouldn't mind, it's about 3 boxes, a suitcase and a vacuum cleaner. Having my things round me would really help.
The other option is my starting up a business as an addition to my job. I am still researching this.
I am feeling quite homesick and I think this is partly to do with going home and partly to do with the fact I am a single mum who works shifts and I don't get much opportunity to socialise.
My mum wants to come out here to live in the next 12 months, my friend does also, I am finding it quite difficult to find a way of getting my mum out here. She is fit and active and is able to work, she also has money, not a lot but enough. I think it is this that is also getting me down. I really could do with my mum out here to help with care of my daughter when I am on shifts. My daughter has got into a couple of scrapes and has been grounded, this is making me evaluate my job options.
If you are coming out here as a single mum or dad, be prepared for the feeling of isolation, I don't have anyone else here and it is hard. I have heard that young mums also have this feeling particularly when they have new babies and feel they need that extra help.
I know these feelings will pass then come back to haunt me. On the whole we are both happier here than in the UK. I didn't have a longing to get back to NZ but I was really happy to see this lovely country when we got back, even though the flight via LAX was a nightmare, I really resent having my fingerprints taken and photo. It is a violation, sorry but it is.
Ok, enough moaning, think i will go for a walk on the beach, see if it will ift my spirits.
Vee
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