[Dawn]

21st Aug
Dominoes pizza is not as good as Hells. Pay the extra and have the Hells it is far and above the best pizza here. It is to die for, vair vair good. Dominoes dough was rather scrummy though but I am a doughy person, I like bready things. When I was little I remember my mum baking bread coz there was a bread strike and you couldn?t buy it anywhere. Can you imagine that happening now? Vair var unlikely, no one goes on strike anymore to prove a point. What happened to folksies standing up for what they believe in? I mean I know things can go too far like when Arthur Scargill caused havoc with the miners strike in the 80?s and for yous lot that weren?t there, yes, it really was like Billy Elliot just without Billy Elliot. Nottinghamshire, where I lived, was right in the thick of it and it wasn?t a very comfortable time at all, those people really were prepared to stand up and be counted and it ripped communities apart. It altered the very fabric and structure of commerce, economy and identity. There is still only partial recovery. Ooooo serious moment.

23rd Aug
Stuff is so up in the air here. I?ve been offered a job but I haven?t got it in writing. This geezer who Jay works with said he wanted me to go and work for him selling websites so I said ?oooo that?s right lovely, ta dead much I?d love to and ta again just for being a nice bloke?. He said, ?I?ll get an offer sorted out for you and I?ll email it over so you know what we?re offering and if it?s any good for you and I?ll do that either tonight or tomorrow.? I said, ?Yeah, ta that?d be great coz I need to know about cash coz obviously we gotta work out whether we can afford to keep all of the children or whether we have to sell one on? and he said, ?Yeah, it doesn?t matter so much if they?re ugly but you have nice kids so you?ll want to hang on to them? and I said ?make it so? and he said, ?I will?. Well, he didn?t. A week later and I haven?t heard anything from him at all. Jay says not to worry coz this is what NZ?s like but to be honest it?s just a tad disconcerting not to have anything in writing. Something I?ll have to get used to I suppose. I just don?t want him getting the wrong idea thinking I?m happy just doing note sitting around waiting for him to give me the nod and stuff, twiddling my thumbs and waiting for other folksies to do stuff for me. I AM NOT. I want to be up and at it now, I am chomping at the bit plain and simply and I feel a bit as though I?m hanging in midair. I want an offer of employment with a salary scale and a start date please at least then I would have something to aim for.

25th Aug
We are waiting for the forms to arrive from immigration. We are putting in our EOI and whilst we?re waiting for that to go through we?re getting work visas. We?re using Gary?s job offer and stuff for the EOI and we want to do that online coz obviously it?s faster and cheaper but we can?t apply for a work visa online so gotta do the old paper chasing on that one I?m afraid. We?ll keep you posted on how that all goes and whether we meet with any obstacles.
I feel really frustrated just now. There?s so much just on the brink of happening and it?s not happening fast enough. I feel like someone?s got their hand on my forehead pushing me away and holding me at arms length and I?m trying desperately to get a grip on them, they?re just out of my reach you know what I mean?

Bought a guitar today!! Woohooo!! Got to cut my finger nails now. Coz they?re getting in the way of the strings. A vair vair nice young man spent an hour and a half tuning guitars for me to strum about on, this is vair vair important to do before making ones choice. Otherwise one could go home with a nick nack paddywack shonky instrument not fit for the purpose and Gawd knows you don?t want that going on. You?d be right kicking yourself if you made the wrong choice coz someone was trying to hurry you a long, music and the making thereof is a vair vair personal thing.