Not that I expected anyone to *really* notice, but I've not visited the forums since late August, not long after our EoI was selected.

I felt bad not to be here reading about how everything was going for everyone else, but the truth is I couldn't stand it. When the realization sank in that being selected did not mean my ITA was in the mail--it finally arrived today, nearly the full 3 months out from pool selection--I really got literally physically ill every time I thought about the whole process. It was like being 5 years old again and seeing the presents under the tree and knowing exactly what was in the boxes and knowing that Christmas was still a LONG, LONG way off.

I'm sorry, especially since everyone has been so helpful and supportive here. I really now have much more empathy for those who are playing the waiting game.

Anyway, it's good to be back ... and hopefully I won't need to run away again. :)